Emotionally Dead
I’m sorry I ruined it all,
I'm sorry that I wasn’t strong enough
And now I just seem to stumble and fall,
Over these emotions ruining my brain,
If all this continues I promise
I’ll be depressed and insane,
Now you're gone and I feel empty,
I don’t think my own mother even knows how to feel,
But now i just sit in this sadness and begin to peel,
Off these different parts of all my emotions to stitch them together
To create some sort of face,
To make a non-sad teenage boy
Who every girl uses as a toy
But fails to see how my insides are cracking,
While every girl puts my heart on the ground and begins whacking
It until it's shattered.
Over and over my pain repeats,
So I try over and over to recreate myself
Until i'm no longer the same person I was before,
All because I fell for someone
I used to adore,
Now I'm a shattered person,
Who nobody seems to know anymore
Who doesn’t want to do anything with their life
And wants to go away from this toxic planet
In search of his true happiness