Emptiness

Fri, 05/16/2014 - 15:07 -- Jdw708

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48507
United States
42° 58' 31.278" N, 83° 45' 6.426" W
48507
United States
42° 58' 31.278" N, 83° 45' 6.426" W
Today I arose to find you not there beside me.
I don't know what part of me expected your prescence, but
Your absence disappointed me just the same.
We established that what happened here was merely an act upon oppression in the form of passion. Yet and still I hate to admit that there was something more. Something that I needed. 
I don't think one word defines the fire that was started here tonight. Perhaps I only allowed you in to fill a void.
I simply asked you to kiss me. That is all.
But when your lips met mine, a surge pulsed within me.
It stopped there, at my heart.
I've been kissed before but this was different.
Maybe it was how you held me.
How you caught a part of this crumbling soul
Just as it was about to fall.
Or maybe it was how you whispered that you loved me.
A lie, of course, but I savored that falsehood.
I'm still amazed at how realistic the whole thing was.
I love the effort you put into your attempt to reach a forbidden realm.
I grew weak. A subliminal part of me took over and allowed me the pleasure of
Tasting that exact lie.
I love you. 
I loved you enough to give you all of me.
You loved me enough to take all of me.
You healed my heart and broke it all in the space of a single breath. 
The act committed was nothing more than a high.
Pure in its filth and sin; vile in its love and passion. 
There can be no escaping this truth, even if it is a lie. 
Time stands still tonight. Cursing me for my stupidity.
Your wrongs were my rights.
I used you just as you used me.
But that temporary moment of feeling wanted...needed...
Released me from the confines of my mind.
So today when I arose to find you not there beside me.
I, in fact, did know what part of me expected your prescence, and
your absence disappointed me just the same
 
 
 

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