EXPLODE

You left me so this What exploded inside
If it wasn't for me your heart be broken BECAUSE I help you pick up those motherfucking pieces and you continue to cry on me when you had no one but turn towards him and left me again. Those times you needed someone to listen I bet I wasn't first on the list probably some other but once those road got shaky you came running to me
you knew I was stable so I control the madness and stood up for you when you had nothing to say...
but when you were satisfied you walked away..
I never turned to you again.
THIS WAS ONLY THE BEGINNING ON WHAT HAS HAPPENED INSIDE ME.
OPEN UP IMANI everyone say!
Make sure you will be prepared for what might explode out once you unlocked the door.
You want me to open up here is what their is to know.
IF YOU KNOW ME EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU HAVE LET ME DOWN!!!
IF I HAVE HELP YOU THEIR WAS A TIME I BROKE DOWN THAT SAME DAY BUT GAVE YOU MY STRENGTH TO HELP YOU!!!!!
WHEN I NEEDED YOU WHEN I CLOSED UP NO ONE PUT UP A FIGHT LIKE I WOULD FOR YOU !!!
I WANTED TO DIE BECAUSE NO ONE APPRECIATED ME WHEN I WAS ALIVE!!!
IF I SMILE AND SAID IT WAS OK I SCREAM TO MYSELF BECAUSE I KNEW IT WOULDN'T BE OK FOR ME!!!!
FOR EACH OF MY POEM YOU DIDN'T QUITE UNDERSTAND I HIDE THE TRUTH BECAUSE THOSE HERS AND HIMS WHERE ALL THE PEOPLE THAT MADE ME A BITTER BITCH!!!!
TO ALL THOSE LONG STRESSFUL DAY I WORK OVER THE LIMITED BECAUSE THERE WAS SOMEONE WHO MADE ME FEEL LIKE I COULDN'T!!!
IF YOU SAW ME WORK FAST AND KEEP MYSELF BUSY IS BECAUSE I WAS AVOIDING MY PROBLEMS!!!
FOR THE ONES WHO SAID I WAS PERFECT OR SCARY OR TOO NICE I WOULD DESTROY YOUR EVERY MUSCLE IF I WAS THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT YOU THOUGH I WAS !!!
FOR ALL THE TIMES YOU APOLOGIZE I SMILED SAID I EXCEPT IT BUT I NEVER FORGAVE YOU!!!
FOR ALL THE TIMES I COME AT HOME AND PUT MY HEADPHONES ON I DISAPPEAR FROM MY PAIN!!!
FOR ALL THOSE TIMES I BITE MY TONGUE BECAUSE I KNEW SO MUCH ABOUT YOU THAT IF I SPOKE I WOULD STEP ON YOUR HEART!!!!
FOR ALL THOSE TIMES YOU LAUGHED AT MY PAIN I SLIGHTLY CAME BACK FOR YOU BUT I MADE SURE YOU NEVER KNEW IT WAS ME!!!
FOR ALL THE TIMES I SOLVED A PROBLEM FOR YOU
DEEP DOWN INSIDE I COULDN'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU BECAUSE YOU NEVER WERE THERE TO LISTEN WHEN I NEEDED YOU TO!!!!!
FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO WALKED AWAY FROM ME WHEN I WOULD WAITED FOR YOU I WANT YOU ALL TO KISS MY ASS!!!!
WHEN YOU COULDN'T SOLVE NONE OF MY PROBLEM LOOK AND THINK ON HOW MANY I SOLVED FOR YOU!!!!
FOR ALL THE MOTHER FUCKER'S WHO NEEDED MY HELP BUT WHEN I NEEDED YOU,YOU WEREN'T THEIR I GOT A FINGER FOR YOU AND IT AIN'T NO THUMBS UP!!!
TO ALL THOSE EVIL LOOKS I GAVE YOU I WAS CUSSING YOU OUT !!!
FOR ALL THOSE TIMES I WAS WEAK AND NOT ONCE DID YOU TEXT ME AND SEE IF I WAS OK IT GOES FOR EVERYONE I HAVE HELPED YOU CAN ALL GET MY FIST!!!!
FOR ALL THE TIMES I LOCKED UP IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS PROTECTING YOU FROM THE BITCH I LOCKED UP!!
THIS GOES FOR THE NICE GIRL I ONCE WAS THAT SMILED AND HELPING EVERYONE
IT DESERVES A ROUND OF APPLAUSE FOR THOSE WORDS YOU NO LONGER KEPT SHUT!!!!!
IF YOU ONE DAY WORRY ABOUT ME I COULD CARELESS BECAUSE THAT'S ASHAME THAT YOU JUST NOTICED!!!!
FOR ALL THE TIMES I SHARED AND HELP AND SHARED AND HELP YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME NOW WHAT THE FUCK DO I HAVE LEFT!!!
WHO'S HELPING ME!!!! WHO'S HELPING ME!!
FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO GAVE UP ON ME STOP ASKING IF I WAS OK, STOP CARING, STOP LOVING I WANT YOU TO STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME BEFORE I FUCK YOU UP!!!!
FOR ALL THOSE TIMES I WAS SILENT ALL THE TIMES I COULD UNDERSTAND YOU
I WANT YOU TO CLEARLY UNDERSTAND THIS YOU WERE THE KNIFE IN ME!!!!!
NO MATTER IF WE FRIENDS OR FAMILY YOU HURT ME SO BAD THAT I PROTECTED YOU FROM HOW MUCH I COULD HURT YOU!!!!!!
FOR THE LONG CONVERSATION AND THE TALKS AND YOU STOP REPLYING!!
FOR WHEN YOU NEEDED ME THERE WERE A MILLION KIKS ON MY PHONE BUT WHEN I'M EMOTIONAL I GET ONE HEY BUT NOT BECAUSE YOU CARE BUT JUST TO SAY THAT SO IT LOOKS LIKE YOU CARE YOU DON'T!!!!
IF I HAD TO CRY FOR ALL THE TIMES I WAS HURT I WILL BE CRYING TO FILL UP THE OCEAN!!!! IF YOU FORGOT ME I NEVER FORGOT YOU!!!!!
THIS WAS WHAT IS INSIDE THAT YOU FAILED TO UNDERSTAND THAT YOU CONTINUE TO DESTROYED ONLY LEAVING ME WITH NOTHING.. NOTHING AT ALL.. THIS IS WHY I HAVE NO TIME TO LET IT OUT BECAUSE ONCE I DO YOU WILL LOSE THE PERSON YOU WERE ALWAYS USE TO....
This poem is about: 
Me
My community
My country
Our world

Comments

powerful.imani

WHEN YOU HOLD IT ALL IN AND SUDDENLY IT ALL POURS OUT... EXPLODE THAT YOU RELIVE THE UNFORGETTABLE TRUTH.. OF ME

Grant-Grey Porter Hawk Guda

Powerful expression. Always let poetry fill your life. Keep expressing your heart.  

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