That Feeling

That feeling - it's almost indescribable. 

T-minus 2 hours, I'm getting ready. The room is clouded with the smell of hairspray and makeup.

T-minus 20 minutes, the whole cast and crew gets in a circle and recieves a pep talk form the director.

T-minus 5 minutes, I'm on the one side of the closed velvet curtain. Hearing chattering from the hundreds of people on the other side. This one beautiful barrier that will change my whole perspective in just a few moments.

T-minus 1 minute, my heart is pounding in my chest, my mouth is dry, my stomach is churning, my hands are shaking and my palms are sweating. Double check everything is in place - hair, makeup, costume, props, me. Typical nerves. I squeeze the hand of the man who will be acting as my husband for the next few hours.

T-minus 5 seconds, I close my eyes, take one last breath, and watch as the velvet curtains separate from each other. And then all of the nerves disappear.

It's magical and inspiring, and I would not be able to live without it. That feeling of invinsibility. That feeling of pure delight and power. That feeling that helps me go on. 

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