like a fool

i gave you everything and it still wasn't enough.

you made me feel like i was nothing. 

made me believe that i was difficult to love.

and like a fool i kept trying,

i kept trying till it became too much.

 

i got in so deep that i lost who i was.

i knew it was toxic.

i knew it wasn't right.

but no matter how bad things got,

i couldn't help but try.

i tell myself it would be different this time.

i just couldn't give up.

constantly battling over whether this is love or lust?

cause if it's love...

then why was it so messed up?

 

i would treat myself  like nothing.

yet to you, i gave so much.

and then you go and break my heart.

tell me that you're sorry and then begin a fresh start.

 

and like a fool, i would wait.

wait for the day you'd make another mistake.

a part of me wants to speak up,

but i hesitate.

 

it's like you're controlling me,

you've infected my brain.

how do i escape when you've become part of my DNA?

even when you're gone,

i'm still the one left with all the pain.

 

love isn't like what you see on TV,

this is what it is like.

this is my reality.

it's not as magical as they portray it in a Disney movie.

it's a lot of pain and sacrifice.

like a fool you just have to keep on pushing,

until you bleed.

This poem is about: 
Me

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