The Forever Darkness Hell never ends.
Some call it suicide. Some call it hell. Some call it escape. All experience it as a forever choice. Life's over. The Forever Darkness Hell fell.
Few understand the choice of living or dying. But it IS a choice one can make. No one can stop you from entering into the Forever Darkness Hell--forever. Never ending. Eternal. The choice that we alone make. The Forever Darkness Hell is the endgame for all.
I actively choose living--enjoying each day as best I can. My friend did not. She chose entering into that Forever Darkness Hell. Her memories live with family. Her memories live with friends. I have her memories forever in my mind, the memories of her life, the now memories of her Forever Darkness and her endgame journey into nothingless Hell.
Will I ever forget her? I can't and won't.
Will I ever forgive her choice to enter into the Forever Darkness Hell? I don't know. I must. But, I can't right now. It just hurts too damn much that she chose to enter Into the Forever Darkness Hell, the forever gone, the forever "never again" laugh, smile, or scream, the always eternal end to life, the Forever Darkness, the forever Hell.
Tolstoy said suicide is an option that puts life into perspective and allows one to live.
The M*A*S*H theme song says suicide is painless, but, whoever had a loved one, friend, or family suicide knows the truth-Suicide is simply lunging Into the Forever Darkness Hell. Dark. Lonesome. Eternal. Nevermore. Never again. Always gone. Never to Return. Elimination Forever. A Forever Darkness Hell.