Fucked Up

Wed, 10/14/2015 - 18:09 -- aw3s0m3

I don't love you

Thank God I don't love you

You didn't break my heart

But you did break something inside me

How could you do this to me?

You said you liked me

You said I didn't need to be nervous

You kissed me, said I'd be okay

You held me when I clung to you

Because I was too nervous to tell you what I wanted to say: "I want this to be real."

I showed you a side of me no one else has seen

My guard was down

I was vulnerable

And then you just said no

"I'm not ready for a relationship.  They always end bad."

You should've just hit me

Why did you kiss me then?

Why did you hug me and hold my hand?

Why did you make me think I wasn't going to be alone anymore?

I was so desperate and mad

I tried to convince you it wouldn't end like that

But now it's like nothing ever happened

Sometimes I want to cry

Most of the time I want to strangle you

All of the time I just want you to hold me again

You know, I don't even care that you took my first kiss

I'm pissed that I let you in

I hate you because you gave me someone to trust

Then just took it away

You fucked up

You fucked me up

I hate you

I want to hurt you

I'm falling in love with you

I hate me

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Me
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