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Hail Mary, full of grace
Keep me safe in your embrace
When did life become this race
of who could wear the shortest skirts
and tightest shirts
and still be a virgin, chaste
Like you?
Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
that condemned a wretch like me
Whose holy words
Left mine unheard
as though this were a travesty
That bore the cross
on my breast embossed
a red A for adultery
Our father, who art in heaven
I know I’m already seventeen
but Lord I just can’t understand why my mother’s so ashamed of me
Why the only thing that she can see
is not the love, or joy I felt, but the disgrace I brought on our family.
Why my friends look at me like an amputee
As if my virginity was a limb, now severed and lost
Why there’s an asterisk when they talk to me
the footnote reading “you slut”
Why boys don’t seem to think I’m easy,
but hold only a less severe disdain
Why no one stood by me, but instead erected “Do not enter” signs,
closed their pearly gates
and made our once mutual friendships into one-way streets
For there is no water holy enough to wash me clean of these sins
No martyr who can save me, Oh
Hail Mary, full of Grace
Hail Mary, full of Grace
Hail Mary, full of Grace
Why my father looks at me so judgmentally
his deflowered little girl, Lucy
Where did we go wrong?
He asks.
And I don’t have to ask to know that I’m the mistake he’s talking about
Lord knows my parents never made love so consciously.
Dear Father, hear this:
When I had sex for the first time, I was not deflowered
I was reborn.
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Poetically_Lifted
I hope you see this. Your poem rocks my spirit. I hope you know that you are not a mistake nor a burden. Your body is yours. You can do with it whatever you choose. Just please just love it, it is you. Never subject yourself to someone else's judgment. Be true to you. I am Christian, but my God never looked down on you with contempt. He loves you.
Born to be a Princess
Any sin through repentance can be forgiven. Repentance means saying sorry for what you did and promising to never do that sin again. Sexual intercourse is only for when you are married. Only because you sin, it does not mean that God does not love you. He loves everyone. God, is a merciful God. He understands that we will make bad choices sometimes. That why Jesus came down to die for our sins so that we could be forgiven and return back to God. I do not look down on you because of what happened. And I think its wrong how your parents and others looked down at you as if you were a shame. Every person on earth is speacial to God and loved. God loves all that is pure and righteous. He gave us agency. He allows us to make our own choices. No one on earth is perfect so we can not look down on others because we are not perfect. Remember that in the new testament of the bible Jesus forgive the woman who committed adultery. You can be reborn after repentance.