Have You Ever Thought About It?

Have you ever thought about it?

 

Do you want to?

                        Have you tried it?

                                                                                                Ever done it before?

Did it hurt?

                                                                                    Did it feel good?

                                    What made you want to do it?

How often?

                                                            How many times?

                                                                                                            Where?

                        With what?

                                                                                                Did anybody find out?

Did you tell anyone?

                                                                                                                        Has anyone asked?

                                    Have they asked why?

Did they care?

When did you first start?

                                                                                    When was the last time?

                        What do they say?

                                                                                                            Yell? Laugh? Cry?

                                                                        How far have you gone?

            Do you want to?

                                                                                                                                                Why?

Why not?

                                                            Do you want to cry sometimes?

                        What do you prefer to use?

Does anyone care?

                                                                                    Are you happy?

                                    Truly happy?

                                                                        Did you deserve it?

                                                Whose fault is it?

Who are you blaming?

                                                                                                                                    Are you sad?

Ever wonder what’s on the other side?

                                                                                                                                    Do you?

                                    But why not?

                                                                                    Can’t you just—?

                                                            Are you lying?

                                                                                                                                    No?

Maybe?

                                                                                                                        Who said that?

                                                Do you like yourself?

                                    Does it even matter?

                                                                                    Do you want to go?

                                                            What’s the point?

                                                                                                            Does anybody need one?

Don’t you think reasons are overrated?

                                                                                                                                    Do you care?

                                                Will looks ever fade?

                                    Do you think it gets worse?

                                                                                                Does it ever get better?

Would you do it all over again?

                                                                                                            How’re you feeling?

                                    Happy?

                                                                                                Angry?

Disgusted?

                                    Frustrated?

                                                                                                                        Tired?

                        Sad?

                                                                                    Like a failure?

                                                Afraid?

                                    Numb?

                                                                                                                                    Breathless?

Fat?

                                                                                                            Heavy?

                                                Guilty?

Ashamed?

Do you have any regrets?

                                                            Would you do it all over again?

                        Anything?

                                                                                                Would you change it?

Keep it all the same?

                                                                                                            Or would you just forget?

                                                Do you want to sleep?

                                                                                                Tomorrow?

            Today?

                                                                                    Tonight?

                                                            Don’t you know what you’re feeling?

Have you any idea what you’re doing?

                                    Is this what failure smells like?

Is it over?

                                                                                                Or is it just a brick wall?

                        What comes After?

                                                                                                                        What came Before?

Or is it all the same?

                                                                                    Age is just a number, right?

Have you ever wanted to die?

                                                                                                                        Was it a mistake?

                                                            Did they ever ask why?

                                                                                                            Don’t they know?

                        Isn’t the answer in the question?

                                                                                                                                    Right?

                                                                        Have you ever thought about it?

                                                Do you want to?

                                                                        Do you want to?

Well?

Why?

                                    Yes or No?

Do

            you

                        want

                                    to?

 

Let’s do it.

Let’s fucking do it.

  

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