Here
So I flew away
And while I'm gone
I will try to forget.
The happiness that consumed me
Theres a first time for everything.
A first kiss,
A first goodbye
A first broken heart cry.
I went to church on Sunday,
Twice.... Just to clear my mind.
And if not for God,
And for my pen,
For without them
I don't know how I would of survived.
As for now I am not home
Its hard to stand strong there,
When your biggest fear,
And biggest disappointment,
Appear every night and day.
I close my eyes,
And I pray a lot.
That I can forget.
I just want to be happy,
Like I once was made,
But all to quickly
That was taken away.
Miles separate me
From what is my normal life,
Maybe that distance is what I need though,
So I can stop dreaming
Of,
You know,
At night.
Ive disappeared,
No longer the thought of me exists.
I should to be able to not reminisce.
My heart pours out,
Into these words,
But I know not if my pain will be seen.
No one expects it,
I've hidden what hurts me most,
And that build up
Has slowly torn me down...
So I have flown away,
And left behind that pain,
Upon my return
I will have forgotten
What I came to not remember.
And one day,
years from now,
In the month after December,
When you return,
From far away,
I will of either remained in your mind....
Or my memory will become fade.