How to be Beautiful

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My House
4 ashmore place Monroe New york
United States
41° 18' 43.1352" N, 74° 11' 39.2208" W

The inclination to stay where I am but the vigor to put me to motion

I find myself in a distressing, discomforting distortion.

My confidence suddenly crashing down on me

increasing my insecurity.

 

Why do i feel so trapped as if i can't handle the impact?

I just want to subtract back to when i didn’t want to snap this stupid society in half.  

 

The mirrors and people around tell me I need to be pretty, skinny,

not realizing that i'm a strong independant contradiction,

only predictable when it comes to my unpredictability.

 

In this body i once thought was great

I feel lost and  like I've never even grown

now all i am thinking about is a plan to escape

although I can’t seem to take life on my own.

 

But I realize that every time I leave this state,

strangers who measure beauty through smiles await

to be kind and conversate.

 

Okay I know the correct term is converse

but trust me PRETTY HURTS and I've said things to myself that are much worse.

 

I’m worthless and ugly, no one will ever love me because i lack pearl teeth, big breasts, a tiny tummy and a pageant personality.

 

Slowly shrinking my reputation to please a male’s meaningless ejaculation

what’s my inspiration?

how about a generation that is obsessed with self mutilation.

 

You see I used to be insecure about everything,

Until those thoughts finally got the courage to flee.

I realized that my imagination and creation

is not necessarily something one can see

but it makes me, me.

 

You see, confidence is something you can chose

it’s not something old age, scars, or no makeup can make you lose.

I know the popular opinion of beauty is in my head for now, no signs of ever leaving,

But hopeful and comforting thoughts control my mind

and make me keep believing that

my intelligence and voice are things I wake up with every day.

I deserve respect, because I AM BEAUTIFUL

no need to hear what other people may say.

 

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Comments

thegut

 

 

I really likws your line: 

Slowly shrinking my reputation to please a male’s meaningless ejaculation

I totally relate. Well said. Keep it up.

Slowly shrinking my reputation to please a male’s meaningless ejaculationSlowly shrinking my reputation to please a male’s meaningless ejaculation

 

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