How can you let your pain go when its everywhere you go?

It sticks on you like a leech sucking the life out of you.

Theirs always something that makes you think 

of what it could've been.

I can take on only so much

before I can't take any more

and I decide to just let go and give up.

I'm the only one who holds hope for myself

and the one who no longer holds my heart 

in my hands.

I locked it up 

after everyone who could've saved me

left me.

I choke back tears often

i'm not afraid to cry but 

i'm afraid that if I do my heart just might stop

and leave me too

because who really wants to live in 

a world full of pain everywhere they go?

I guess I'll walk this road alone 

until the time comes when I decide to leave myself too.