I am My Worst Enemy

Sat, 11/14/2015 - 03:53 -- JoFran

I let myself fall

Not so I can stand up again,

But so I can stay down

Down and depressed

I am my worst enemy

I make myself believe terrible things

Awful things about myself

Things that Bullies say

I am my worst enemy

I am my own bully

Not believing what people say

The good things never stick

Always the bad things

Things I say to myself

I am my worst enemy

Not letting anyone close

Because they can hurt me too.

Telling myself no one cares.

Because no one does care.

I am my worst enemy

I cry myself to sleep

Trying to forget the thought

The thought of leaving this place

The thought of

Suicide.

I am my worst enemy

I cut everything

I cute everyone out

I cut myself until I feel nothing.

Nothing is the soft sound of serenity.

Self-harm losing a part of yourself

I am my worst enemy.

I dont tell anyone

Keeping my deadly secrets

Killing me slowly.

Never said a word,

Never saying a word.

I am my worst enemy

The razor cuts deep

The rope pulls tight

The pills go down

The gun went off.

I am my worst enemy

Even in the face of death

I am my worst enemy.

No one is worse than I,

I am my worst enemy.

Never being able to see the light of day again

Darkness is my friend,

For I am my worst enemy

 

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world

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