I am only a child
I am only a child,
a student,
simply another girl in this society
but yet i am expected to be so much more.
I am expected to be smart,
independent
athletic
pretty
and
popular..
Stressing.
For I am only a child.
I struggle to be top of my class
and fail.
I am not good enough
I am not smart enough
I cannot handle this stress
I cannot handle this anxiety
I cannot handle these migraines
I struggle to be the best player
and fail.
I am not good enough
I am not fast enough
I am not impulsive
I am not skilled.
I want to be pretty
and i fail.
I do not get enough sleep
I do not have the energy
and above that
I cannot afford mac
I cannot afford sephora
I want to be popular
and fail.
I do not have time
I do not have energy
I am not social
I am only a student
I am only sixteen
I am only one of 7.3 billion
I am only a child.
but yet at this age i am expected to be so much more.
I am supposed to be valedictorian
I am supposed to be tough
I am supposed to be independent
I am supposed to be popular
I am supposed to have a job
and worst of all
I am supposed to look like a model
How..
How can I possibly be all of that
and still be mentally sane…
I can’t..
I should be allowed to mess up
I should be allowed to be weak
I should be allowed to be shy
I should be allowed to be..
to be ME.
For i am only a child,
replaceable and just like any other.