I Can Still Feel You

I can still feel you.

I can still feel your touch, your arms around my waist,

Your hands around my neck.

I feel your presence everywhere,

Every day,

Following me,

Hovering over me,

Suffocating me,

Torturing me.

Your eyes,

Your malevolent smile,

Will always be tattooed in the back of my mind,

Forever stuck to my closed eyes.

You are the monster the darkness warns of.

I gave you everything I had.

I told you my dreams,

Shared my secrets,

Gave you my trust,

Offered you my heart.

But that wasn’t enough.

It was never enough.

You wanted the one thing I refused to give,

And you did everything you could to take it from me.

You made your mark,

Branded me,

Made me your property.

You ruined me.

You broke my already worn heart,

My already fragile state of mind.

But you didn’t break me.

I will never give you that satisfaction.

You may have ruined my first time,

Ruined my ability to trust,

You didn’t break me.

I know I will always feel you there,

See you everywhere,

Byt I will only use that as motivation

To forget you.

To not let you control my life anymore.

Your mark,

Your brand,

Will forever be on me.

But I will no longer let it define me.

This poem is about: 
Me
Our world

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