My teacher looked at me with disappointment but I know because I head told her one big lie.

I can't tell her that I can't sleep at night too busy thinking about life and how would I ever find me a way out.

i can't tell her that I hate being at home because the world is cold and I hate being alone 

I can't tell her I sleep in her class because it the only place I feel safe enough to close my eyes

 I can't tell her that I missed her lesson because I didn't have bus fare to make it to school even tho her rules is you miss a day your grade would pay

i can't tell her to just be glad I'm here because I could've had dropped out and had a kid.

i can't tell her I focus my on boys then school work because I just wanna feel the love I never had

i can't tell her that I'm trying the best way I can't to pass her class so get off my ass

i surely can't tell her how my mama boyfriend beat me with discourage me and 

I would never tell her how my mother run off and left me. I can't came close to telling her I working hard to be all that I can be but I'm afraid because I don't know if college even possible for me. I can't tell her my family broke and we don't have no more money

i can't tell my teacher I didn't turn in my research assignment because I work a part time jod everyday to support myself so I wasn't able to do myhomework

i can't tell my teacher I barely have a place to live my home is not a home it's so unstabe

i can't tell my teacher I couldn't do my homework about the news because we don't even have cable not even a kitchen table.

I can't tell my teacher that C's is good to me because I'm the youngest out of 4 to ever get this far and this is what I believe is working hard

i can't tell my teacher that she is the best thing that ever happened to me because no one has ever cared how she care about me, pushing me hard, and trying to encourage me.