I love you. but I

I love you. but I hate you.

Why must I be blinded? Blinded by the memories,

Lost in the new you,

Confusion swirls my mind; But I still care

You hurt me so much,

Left me alone in a crisis.

Did it on my own without you there

. But... I still wonder about you. I wonder if your ok?

Jealousy kicks in when I think your with someone else

. But why?

Were no longer together, You no longer care.

I question if you ever did..

It's in the back of my mind.

I tell myself everyday to forget it, But a minute passes, I think about what I done.

I done more than kill, Done more than make a decision,

I'm haunted by the memory, But you don't know why.

I dealt with society when I walked in, Dealt with the signs behind,

I breathed deep and told myself it was okay.

I wanted to call you and cry.

I walked in the office, closing my eyes. Not wanting to use any of my senses.

Once it was over, My feelings can't even be explained,

Not even in this poem that will never be seen.

I wonder if you think about it like I do, I wonder if you were scared like me,

I wonder if you need me like I need you, To tell me everything will be okay.

I get sad,

Were strangers with memories

. I wish we could.go to the day where we first kissed, It was less complicated,

We were happy,

There was more to us than just sex

Sex made us complicated; Sex got me pregnant

I wonder if I will ever be able to forget this.

I want too.

I feel like I murdered

I wish we could of talked about it it all just happened so fast

Honestly i dont forgive you

If you didn't lie to me that day i wouldnt of had sex with you again.

I wouldn't be feeling this pain.

 

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