i wish i could look at you

and say i feel nothing

but that'd be a lie

cause I do feel something

I feel the pain

of all the one night stands

when you wanted somebdy to hold you

in hopes that it might become more

they penerated

your scarcedness

and left you

clothed naked

on the floor

shattered

i see the man

who you trusted

to raise you

become a monster 

in the night 

with his thirst

for your fragile innocence

i see the

little bags full

of your escape

that white powdedry form of 

heaven

that only lets you hide

from the hell

I see the men

who you stand on the corner for

because you have to feed

your brother

who is also your son

I see that you

cant go back

but are too afraid to go foward

I see

who you are

because in the reflection

I see we

I see that you're postive

not in an optimistic way

but the kind

that effects you each day

the postive

that the monster

gave you