I used to be so kind
you took away from me
the only parts of myself
that i ever loved
and made me despise them
as much as all the other things
that i could never stand
you stole my heart and ran with it
yet
here it is
still thudding againt my chest
at the thought of you
but nothing beautiful
lives there anymore
because when the thudding slows
to a subtle jump
the rhythm is no longer one
that can harmonize
with the grace that once danced
through my veins
grace left
and did so love
fed up with the pain the I forced on them
just so that i could keep you
now all that's left is a heart
that's hollow
and cold
that sits alone in my chest
now all that's left is me
always trying to catch my breath
and always wiping tears from my eyes
trying to understand
what i ever did
to have deserved you.
i used to be so kind.