What could I do?
What would I say?
I cannot begin to imagine the pain I'll feel once I realize you are permanently gone
You'll be like a distant memory of what could have been, what was
Now, after some time, you're a ghost of my former past
A friend I once knew long time ago
My farewells to you would feel utterly incomplete
My rivers of sadness and tears I've notice, have become an unknown right
I've often times armed myself with them any time I unexpectedly hear the name you once knew
of,called by, and answered to
My wells throughout the night will be blood curling, a scary high pitch mash of angry emotions
The squeals of abandonment that haunt my soul ripple throughout the house, every room and
hallway filled with heartfelt agony and morsel regret
Ranging from severe to monotone disengagement of an unattached reality
I would ask myself, "Why couldn't I see your years were limited, not indefinite?"
My dear, my dear love. Be gone now!
Dash through my dreams like a shadow on a dreary day
How dreadful is it to remeber you like this?
"Why wasn't I allowed the opportunity to say goodbye?"
I might never know
Farewell for now.