I'm afraid-

Of the crushing guilt

That lays inside me

As I'm told I made a mistake,

I fucked up.

That it'll take some time

To not be angry,

To trust me again,

To say "I love you".

Because of a slip of the tongue

That happens to everyone.

 

I'm afraid-

Of people wanting me to be someone else

And when I'm not

Yelling at me

And calling me wrong.

Of being thrown away

for being myself.

I'm afraid-

Because I can't be anything else.

 

I'm afraid-

Because while I always forgave her,

She'd get mad at me once a week.

Because even when I was right,

She made me wrong.

Because he was always chosen,

Even if I was the better choice.

Because I was no one but myself,

And she wanted me to be him.

 

I'm afraid-

Of love.