I'm Afraid
But I don't believe
in love, exceptions or
meaning, don't see me
as beautiful or redeemable
I've never felt so close to
death, dress me in a fur
coat and send me down
a river, I will undress myself,
burdened by snowflakes
buried under the ice, my
heart is stone, I dived
to sink, I've never felt
like such an outsider
and I am sorry that I've
lived, nothing matters
I could kill to get away
or kill just to kill, nothing
matters, no one's here
with me anyway.