I'm Losing Control but You Can't Lose What You Never Had

My eyes are heavy with tears

all my hopes, when did they fade away?

all my fears, when did they come to stay?

I'm losing control (as if I had any)

my spirit was broken a long time ago

I'm still trying to come back from it

I'm losing control

I don't know where to go from this point.

So is this how it ends? Or does it keep going on?

One problem to find a solution to after another

Well, I'm losing this battle (like I ever had a chance)

I never wanted to be that person but all I have to do to find them is look in the mirror

I can't do this anymore

I'm brittle and broken to the core

every door and window is closed and another one's not opening

or at least I'm too blind to see if one is

I'm losing control. I'm losing control

(I never thought life would be like this. I thought perhaps, maybe a bitter-sweet bliss)

I'm losing control

(I was obviously wrong but how do I go on hopeless and clueless? How can I ever make it out of this dark abyss?)

I'm losing control...

This poem is about: 
Me

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