My heart started racing when his name popped up on my phone’s screen.

I flash back to the many nightmares of him hunting me.

I'm caught in a state of fear, attempting to read his mind,

figure out why he’s calling.

Soon I find myself feeling only a weight in my chest and nothing else.

Normally I’d try to fight it,

but today I can’t muster the strength to get out of my bed.

The weight pulls me under and drowns me in my own consciousness.

I feel a heat behind my eyes as tears begin to fall,

and I fade to sleep to escape the ache pressing against my chest.

Just go away Dad.