I sit alone,

Staring at the screen.

So much running through my mind.

So much pain and with a heavy heart I say,

"I'm not okay."

I never was,

I never will be.

I hate the fact I'm hiding it.

I chose to hide it.

Screaming at the top of my lungs seems like an option,

But nothing comes out.

Being  able to cry in the dark helps,

But nothing seems to make it stop.

Slowly I slip away without even knowing it.

Tears seem to form,

But they never seem to fall.

The pain still lingers.

Be aware that,

"I'm not okay."