I'm Sorry I Didn't Do My Homework

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I would have liked to do my homework
But last night my dog was barking
My sister was screaming
And I couldn't stop crying about that thing that happened years ago.
I was just a kid.
I'd like to tell you it wasn't my fault
Like the doctors said
But somewhere deep down
I can't help but think that maybe I deserved what he did.
Isn't Karma supposed to be justified?
The math problems seemed to spell out his name
The character in the book looked too much like him
And the chapter on repression in Psychology was obviously written
So everyone would know my secrets. 
 

And this whole "You are not alone campaign"
is shit.
How can you fix something if you don't understand it?

You're not alone.

I'm alone. 

I was alone
in the back of the auditorium
when the student council was telling me to not be alone.
I must be making them look bad.

And he's not alone, either.
Even though he's the reason I am.

I'm sorry I didn't do my homework last night
When the only friend I had left
Was telling people that I'm insane
And my younger sister is yelling
Because she knows more than I do
And needs to let the world know.

I'm sorry I didn't do my homework last night
I was too busy
Trying to make money at my job
So I can escape this God damn town
And go home
Where I had friends
And I was normal
And I didn't sit in the back of the auditorium
Or get called to the guidance counselor's office so often
And had a lot of friends
Who loved me.

I'm sorry I didn't do my homework last night.
But what the hell were you doing?

Comments

jalejos1

i think this poem is amazing.

this exact same thing happened to me my sophomore & junior year but i survived.

i envy how easily you can express yourself with words.

it is a really cool gift to have.

remember, you are never alone.

i hope you can get back to your friends soon :)

never stop writing 'cause you are good at it.

good luck :)

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