The only letters I’ve ever kept
Are apology letters
Every single one from my father
Because it’s easier for him to write to me
And leave it in my room while I’m sleeping
Than to look me in the face
I love you so much,
and I’m very sorry for how I treated you.
You need to know that you deserve
to be treated kindly by me
and all others.
It’s great you are so forgiving,
and said “It’s alright dad”
but it’s not alright.
I hope you forgive me
and I love you so very much.
I’m sorry for making that stupid comment last night.
Sometimes my bad attitude and anger
come out for no reason.
I’m not mad at you
I love you
and I think the world of you.
I’m not even good at writing
this letter but please,
please remember it no more.
…I’m sorry for a lot of things.
I still cry
when I read these letters
Because I know
There should be so many more
Because some people can’t change
But you love them anyway