I'm two years alcohol free, but I still feel this way sometimes
Location
It's two a.m.
And basically I'm longing to dream again
I'll have my lusts when I awake
But when I close my eyes, I have nightmares that
I can
Not shake
And I remember running
From a beast or something
But there's only flashbacks from the last year
I slipped my last beer
And slipped a picture of the bottle to a girl who's
Like my sister
Now I never hear more than a whisper
From her
Or anyone
Cuz she's straight edge and
She never liked it when I got drunk
Now getting fucked up
Is my one lust
I want to feel the way I did last fall
When I'd fall
And it wouldn't
Even
Hurt
Anymore
I could slam my finger in a door
And I'd laugh
And forget coming home to screams of how
Fat
I am
From my own mind
And mouth
I just wanna forget
About how I feel like shit
All
The
Time
And to be honest
I don't even wanna remember the time
Cuz then how would I even know it's two?
And how I should be awake missing you?
I
Still
Have
The
Shakes
In the spaces that your fingers no longer trace
And the lack of bringing cigarettes up to my face
To my blacked out
Mouth
And my blacked out
Eyes
That have recently run out of tears tears to cry
Back then solo cups numbed my pain
I can hardly remember your unbuttoning
And forcing me into your back seat
Oh God
I just
Want
To
Forget again