The Inner-Workings of a Disordered Brain

I don’t know how

How to cope 

This weight inside me feels too much

 

My life laid out I thought I was fine

Time passed, life crashed, I fell apart

All alone I hid my fears and ignored it all

 

Ignorance, naive as it may, my brain tries to protect me from the anger of the world. 

 

Emotions gone, I sit and know that

 

I don’t know how

How to cope 

I need your help I need your guide

I don’t know how

How to deal with 

This overwhelming weight

 

Obviously drowning, people came to my side

Prayers flying, support beside me

Yet at times I still feel alone

 

Too far, too fast, the moments always pass

10 minutes they say and you’ll be safe

All I want is love then, but I just can’t seem to grasp 

 

Emotions suddenly gone I sit and know that

 

I don’t know how

How to cope

I need your help I need your guide

I don’t know how

How to deal with

This overwhelming weight

 

Who to call, what to do, I feel stuck in a rut and nothing to do. Family, friends, boyfriend, teachers too, all there but all trying to make do. Stay alone, curl and breathe through. 

 

I’m okay now, I made it through. 

I need to sit and call those who knew

Emotions winding down, cheeks tear-stained, I know that

 

I don’t know how

How to cope

I need your help I need your guide

I don’t know how

How to deal with 

This overwhelming weight

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This poem is about: 
Me

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