"It isn't that bad"

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It’s so confusing seeing with a deaf mind.

Wanting to take action, but afraid of what might occur.

Craving the embrace of your world, but shying away with fear of being hurt.

I live this day by day.

 

It’s so unsettling to have a timid soul.

To watch the days go by knowing they won’t be back….

And that’s ok.

Same old. Same old.

Being ok with nothing every day.

I live this day by day.

 

I don’t know who I am or who I’ll be.

All I know is… that I want to be free.

Free from what, Chelsea?

Oh. I don’t know. I haven’t thought that far...

I don’t have the time to think. My thoughts are too bizarre.

Besides, who would listen anyway?

Chelsea, it’s not that bad.

I live this day by day.

 

I should probably go.

But I can’t leave. Not today.

I’m in my head. So, here, I should stay.

It could be worse, Chelsea!

It could always be worse; that’s always true.

So, where do I start? What do I do?

I don’t know. It’s hard to say.

No surprise this is my day by day.

 

I shouldn’t complain.

There are people more troubled; who carry more pain.

But I can’t help myself. I get caught up

In myself, in my life…I should really shut up.

You don’t have it that bad!

I shouldn’t be down…

But I’ve lost myself…

…And I’m nowhere to be found.

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