learning
when I found you
I remember feeling full of sadness
angry at myself, angry at her
voiceless
no one to listen, no one to care
you were an outlet
a way to say
what I kept bottled up in my heart
I found that I didn't need someone to listen
I didn't need someone to care
only myself
I just needed to see it
to visualize my emotions
and put them into words
today I look to you when I need a friend
you've taught me how to put my feelings into words
how to accept myself
how to change
I look through old poems and I can't believe I ever felt that way
As I read through the lines I relive those moments
I feel it in my stomach
poems have become a part of who I am
my journals a memory of how I've changed
almost a photo album of words
now when I feel I have no one
I know that all I need
is some paper and a pen.