Knowing that I would have his child to hold

And that I'd do it by myself and nobody would know 

That I was the reason why my child would grow without a daddy to know. 

 

And I said leave. 

Cause I'd never allow myself to need him

So close to the edge and and patience was getting too thin

So I allowed him leave me 

And didn't think how it would affect Bre

Cause who was I to take away that young man's dreams

 

And sometimes I hope that one day he would make it and thank me for the life I gave him

That he was grateful for the sacrifices I made

And how I made him

That he'd come back for me and his baby 

And How'd he wanted me to be his lady 

But he had to make a life for us first think about love later

 

But now I'm thinking of the life I could have  had 

A great career, Morgan State alumni, and a continuous loving relationship with my mom and dad 

 

But that's gone and to take its place is my bundle of joy 

A boy 

The only boy would love me and not play me 

Like a toy

 

So I don't regret a single choice I've made  

cause this baby is the reason for everything I gave up

And he's given me the kind of happiness I'd never trade up

 

And even if that young man never thinks of me again 

He's given me the most beautiful love I could ever have 

A little child of God and a friend

The opportunity to be a mom and a dad. 

To be his first love and his superhero

To give my son the life I never had

 

So I'm glad I told him to leave

 and to let me live the life I wanted to lead

And give him the chance to be the man he wanted to be

Cause no matter how hard it was to let him leave

I knew that my life was still going to be full of positivity and possibilities. 

Even if it was to be just me and that baby.