Less Publicized
When I hear about the suicides of
artists, musicians, authors, poets
People that create
I am afraid
and sad, I mourn them.
I mourn the loss of someone who creates
I am sad because they can no longer do so
I am afraid because I relate to them
I find myself on the same wavelength as these people
They do those things because, like me,
they feel so much, so intensely, all the time
I find that the older I get,
the greater capacity I have to feel
And the more I have to somehow express it
Even if I can't figure out how
So I keep drawing,
keep journaling,
keep writing
I keep creating.
I am afraid that if I don't
I will become a less publicized version of them.