Today. Today I question myself
Who is in my life?
Who cares? and Who holds me back?
The answer awaits
You see, for me to ask that
I would need to understand myself
What do I want?
Who do I need?
What will make me happy?
All of these questions are answered
By my inner demons
They tell me yes and no
They decided what makes me happy
My inner demons fight with me
But we also agree
My inner demons set me free
My everything else holds me back
You know that red is my favorite color?
It represents passion
It represents emotion
Love. Hate. Anger. Blood. Fight.
If I were the color red
You would all by grey
Dark, Light, and medium
See greys have a way of making things dull
My view was becoming dark and hazy
All the grey started to block me
From the things I have dreamed of
What I want to be
From my true self
It wasn’t their fault
It was mine
But here I was
I was born bright red
Ready for all the passion and emotion
Then the grey changed me
They dulled my color
They molded me
Will I ever be vibrant red again?
Will I ever shine like I could have?
My inner demons keep yelling at me
My view becomes darker and darker
What do I do?
You all are grey
You decide my future
Are you going to let me go?
Will you let me be bright again?
Will you set me and my demons free?
I have loved you all
I always will
But can I love myself?
I’ve never tried
I was too busy taking care of you
I’d like to give myself a chance
A chance to be bright red
So this is a letter
To all of those who hold me back
Please set me free
Relieve the weight from my back
I am not Atlas
I am just the color red.