Life On the Bench
Can't you see I'm trying my hardest?
That I'm giving all I've got?
One more sprint
one more suicide
I could break at any second
but all you see is imperfection
no skill
no talent
you see what everyone else sees
you don't see me
not the pain
or the tears
or the strenth it takes to stay here
my heart breaks
here sitting on this bench
I long to be out there
bump
set
spike
kill
but I guess that takes more than my own skills
I practice
but I have nothing to show for it
my passions
my dreams
they're just not ment to be
everyone says I'm a big part of this team
I don't have a jersey
I'm not on the roster
we win
and I feel like I'm in the stands
I hear their names
and for a second I thought I might join them
out on the court
victory at last
but I watch in silence
holding back tear
I can't wait to get out of here
it was my choice
I chose this for myself
it's better to be a small part
than not be a part of it at all
this is what I tell myself
but that fact doesn't take away the pain
I listen and take in a much as I can
in the hopes that one day
I might be good enough to come off the stands
I'm done taking score
in a game I can't win
tonight I'll walk home looking down
so you can't see what emotions
I hide within
knowing that tomorrow
I'll do it all over again
I'll never let you see
what this really does to me