Light
Walking with a cloud of despair over my head
dreading what the future holds near or lack there of
mourning the loss of all sanity I started with
now it's me against high school Bermuda
with the same events happening everyday that make it unbearable for me to want to stay
I confide in a person I thought I held dear to my heart but they ended up playing the pity part
holding onto hope I dish out to a few more feeding their very soul the gossip about my life nobody knows
they end up playing their own role but am I the fool?
or am I the puppet?
What happens to the puppet when he cuts his strings
out of curiosity i sever all ties to the controlling one
I start to plan my own demise whether its with chemicals or a stool and a rope
emotion hits me hard in the middle of class shaken and stirred gasping for air
will I really go through with this? Will my family even shed a tear
no more procrastination the time is near giving off no signs that I am dead inside
no outsider knows what the insiders soul screams and shouts
the ones I told called it a bluff
when it's done they'll carry something equivalent to the weight of the world
a chip on their shoulder they'll never quite seem to shake
As I think my last thoughts all thoughts turn back to you
or should I say me I wonder and wonder but I make no moves to stop
i just debate on chemical or rope or maybe something a bit more daring
i decide on the easy way out
nail to the wall rope around my neck knotted tight there is no escape
do i see the light I think as I take that first step I quickly step back up because the light is too bright
it illuminates my fears I close my eyes and pick up the cup
Drink the contamination I came up with my mind slowly shutting down
i see the light
i take a step closer
air is getting tighter
i finally see the light