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Today I learned
That a boy my sister knew
Killed himself yesterday.
And it made me remember
How precious each life is
And also
That it could have been me.
I want to cry for him
But it’s still so hard to cry
Even when my heart is breaking.
Like the deepest part of me
Is stunned
Unable to move.
I survived
I live.
I am one of the lucky ones
One of the ones
Who got to come back
From the pain
Who continues to heal.
I know people love me
I find myself more and more
I have realized that I belong in this world
And that I can make a difference here.
Not everyone is so lucky.
Not everyone.
Not him.
I remember all that pain
What it feels like
To think you don’t matter
To think you’re alone
To think no one cares
To hurt.
So much
To everyone in the darkness
I don’t know how to save you.
All I can do
Is live and love and write.
I hope you can hear me
Somehow
When I tell you
Even if you can’t find anyone else
Who cares
I do.
When I tell you
There is always hope.
When I beg you
Crying inside
Please live.