Living Life

The way the time may go, The way the water flows

The way the sun shines in my eyes, Today I pray

That though the storm may rage

And though the times may change

These memories in my heart will always stay

 

Life is hard, harder than I'd thought it'd be 

Not as smart as I thought I'd be 

But I'm enjoying days I never thought I'd see

Doing my best to learn from my mistakes 

Trying to figure out who I am, but my heart struggles in a world with so much hate 

Yet, I refuse to keep letting the ignorant opinions of others be my truth 

It's time for me to cease using my scars as an excuse not to move forward 

And yeah at times the ocean of emotion inside me threatens to overflow 

But it's then, that I take a moment to scream and laugh and cry and sing 

and pour my heart out into notebook pages 

Because my tears will dry 

The wounds decorating my heart will heal 

and the scars left behind will be my reminder to never give up 

I just wanna live my life 

But I'm scared 

Scared to face the fact that I'm changing into someone the mirror hardly recognizes anymore

Scared to let down everyone who believed in me

How can I believe in me without them 

Is it even possible forge my own path 

But if that is the only way to make my dreams come true than what choice do I have 

I cherish every good day that I have 

Because when I'm at my worst 

It's the memories of face consuming smiles and infectious laughs 

Of happiness and love that get me through 

Still I struggle trying to make the right choices

Doing my best to ignore those whispering doubt like voices 

Sometimes it's a fight just to get out of bed each morning 

But I do, I get through 

Even though I'm faced with ever present fear that I won't 

Because if I let fear hold me back I'd never get a chance to show the world 

The beautiful person I know, one day

I can become

 

The way the time may go, The way the water flows,

The way the sun shines in my eyes, Today I pray, 

That though the storm may rage

And though the times may change

These memories in my heart will always stay

This poem is about: 
Me

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