Nine months I spent wondering
Wondering about that opening
The opening that was said to come, when I reached the end
The end that I anxiously waited to begin.
It began when you were young
Young enough to stand
Standing tall enough to take your hand,
To join it with that man, that forced you to be a WOMAN
Woman enough to leave that house you called your home,
Home was where you belong, but with the differences between you and ya mama
Mama didn't want you to stay there long.
Leaving so soon, definitely made you act out
Out of your character , just cuz you was out that house.
That house held the memories of that man who took your energy
Your energy , gone, none left to fight
All this stuff you doing now can't be right
Runnin' the streets all through the night
Remembering that hand that held you so tight
No place to stay, so no sleep tonight.
No one to guide you, now you lost in this cold world.
The world he promised you, only if you laid on your back,
Back when you were just his little Princess
Some Princess you are now , living in this dungeon.
If only you could see the light,
The light that comes when this darkness has passed
Passed, is what the days did while you were all alone
Alone until you met that MAN who would save you
Save you from all your pain and sorrow
Sorrow you never felt, cuz all he could do was make you smile.
You smiling now
Now you're living good, with no worries.
Its only been a couple of month, and your past was getting blurry.
You tried to forget all the things that brought you HOME from that dump
That dump where that man stayed, that gave you this baby bump.
A curse without the blessing,
Your plan was to get rid of it with no stressing
To break free from all of your past, there was no second guessing.
I guess you didn't realize this was your beginning.
A beginning you reached when you thought it was the end
The end of your days fighting that hand
The hand you once called father, now that unfamiliar man.
A toll this has weighed on me,
I'm spending my last days, waiting to be set free
No more darkness, cuz now WE can see the light
I thank you for this poem.. cuz it definitely gave me LIFE