If there is a heaven

When she arrives

Will she be 19?

If her family gets there

One day

How old will they be?

Will everyone’s ages progress, normally, as down here on earth?

I hope they all find each other and reunite…

…I can’t stop thinking about what she must have felt like

I’ve been broken down and lonely

But her pain

Tears are streaming down my cheeks

What a beautiful, radiant person she appeared to be

But outer looks don’t always represent happiness on the inside

Clearly she was suffering and felt no hope

I think about what her morning was like when she awoke

Did she know she was going to kill herself when she got out of bed?

I wonder if she talked to anyone during the day in person, and if so, what she said

Was she screaming on the inside, but stoic on the out?

I wish so badly she could have stopped herself

And understood how loved she appeared to be

A stranger I am, but her story has affected me

I would think she felt what she felt for quite a while

Planned out her suicide

Knew that she wanted to die

Doesn’t seem like it could have been a momentary weakness

Her bones must have felt pain

It’s so sad

Young, talented, beautiful

But she seemingly didn’t feel it

I can’t help but think, too

Once she was in the air

Did she regret?

One of the saddest parts of her story is that she bought her family gifts and left a note at the garage

I wish anyone could have saved her if they saw

My legs would have bolted

If only she could come down and take it back

Anyone who commits suicide, takes their life, ends their breath on their own terms

I wish they could take it back, talk with someone

Everyone’s life is worth living

This is a hard world

But people will help and listen

Madison

You will be cherished and remembered

I hope you’re in peace in heaven