A Masterpiece in My Own Right

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From a young age, the objective has been beauty


A beautiful body, a flawless face was what I aspired to


My course with preset to a perfect appearance


 


As I grew, I learned my role well


If I was pretty enough, I'd be more accepted


Thus stirring dispondence


 


The older I became, the more I saw of the world


The more I saw, of all the beautiful people on the screen, the more I looked inward


For the mirror never told the same story


 


To be thin is to be beautiful and for some that is an attainable goal


However, for a chubby, shy girl so unsure of myself, it was impossible


I couldn't match their glory


 


Though I was healthy, I wasn't skinny so I wasn't content


After all, if I'm not like the models in the magazines, then I couldn't be beautiful


I devoured this lie


 


It wasn't until I became an adult that I realized the true image of beauty


It only took a decade for my eyes to open to the truth


I didn't have to cry


 


All the crash diets and back breaking exercise routines weren't going to make me beautiful


And the comical self-deprecation to hide my insecurities wasn't cutting it either


Because my goal, I'd already met


 


Beauty is confidence in who you are and letting that light shine through


It's not a dress size, but a right as a human being for there is beauty in our imperfections


Perfect comparisons are not worth the sweat


 


My curves don't mask my beauty, but rather accentuate it perfectly


My height, my breasts, my every insecurity just another perfect brush stroke


I'm a masterpiece in my own right


 


Because true beauty comes from the pureness of your heart and the depths of your soul


For looks fade with time, but the kindness one shows and empathy one bears are immortal


If only I'd had this knowledge in hindsight


 


I might not have hated the mirror for as long as I did


I would have seen the beauty I thought it hid

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