Merciful God
There I was only nine years old
Learning what's right and what's wrong, but doing nothing that I am told
Had no clue that other than boys and toys there was more to life
Seeing mommy with a boyfriend made me hope to one day become a wife
Too smart for my age I never played dumb
Didn't even hit puberty and still felt like the only one
"The only one who loves me is me" , I would say
Packed some clothes and my favorite toy in a bag and planned to run away
Mom took us to church every once in a blue moon
So I took a nap on the pew and told God "see you soon"
Had no idea what my savior had done for me while I slept
At age twelve I learned the greatest verse in the bible for me was "Jesus wept"
Wept for what I would ask
That's when I realized he wept that some day I'd take off this mask
That one day I'd stop calling myself a thug and a boss
Lay down all my desires and pick up my cross
Years passed and people told me but i still didn't know
"God told me what he could see, so why doesn't it show"
How come when I look in this mirror I can't see what God can
They say pray really hard so that God shows you his plan
Some plant, some water, but God makes it grow
Loving God in public, but doubting on the low
My God is merciful and loves me even when I'm wrong
Such an awesome God somebody wrote it in a song
Dealing with so many sins for so long
God hold me like a child because I can not be strong
And that's exactly what he plans to do
Feed you the word with a bottle like a babe until you see his love is true
The awesome love of a father that can come from no other
Love that He has given to every sister and brother
So I hope that this has shed some light on a clue that I find to be true
My awesome God loves me and he loves all of you