Momma told me nobody would understand me

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Momma told me nobody would understand me...

I remember on day in the black light momma told me to old on tight...

 no body would understand me but that's all right she said the way I word my phrases or phrase my words might seem unusual to the naked eye but that's why I need glasses so I can see things that people can't see she explained I'm the one who can truly see while others are walking blind...

 
So she told me the day would come when I would walk proud and tall with all my knowledge about me...trying to figure out why the world though opulent couldn't live on without me... She told me one day I'll stumble over words and I'll fumble but that I'll conquer speech and that when I start to speak out would roll thunder...
 
 
So I hungered for knowledge I hungered for profit...
But what I didn't count on was being deserted for nonsense....
That messed me up inside when I was old enough to realize
That lies were wat I told  myself just to keep me going like sugar coated candy...
 
And now I'm paying for it like diabetic patients 
I'm hurting and there's no cure for this disease...
Got handed over without a fight like I was just some dust caught in a breeze...
 
I find myself lurking across my mind like an out of place stone across a pond.. 
Memories fill the air I'm thinking about my mom...
pain caused; but the anguish was the very relief..
 I dove into my mind trying to find every release 
nothing mines well drown in shits creek... 
It seems my key problem was deciding to trust anyone...
In the end the root of the problem just teaches me not to stress anyone... 
My lifes a gun and the pains the bullets that are relinquished 
from the pull of the trigger...
 I'm now all empty... 
And to think life can give pleasant miracles to a  less heaven bound figure... 
My dreidel stops spinning and my shower over flows 
I drown in the waters of my very own tears and sorrows... 
Yet some how I learned to live on
off of the belief of my very own fears of tomorrow...
Peering  into the outskirts of time just to find 
a man hidden behind a curtain in front of another... 
We are all just lost puppets mere muppets of the universe since birth... 
Reality gave birth to the truth yet neither of them turned out to be real 
so daily I swallow the truth from this b9  Allegra D pill...
(that's a metaphor no one will get)
 Each day we get more than our daily fill...
so today allow me to just take my daily overdose pill... 
A cruel existence we live in based on the strings of injustice...
and once the heat streams as steam from the pan even though we know it's too hot as kids we still cant resist the urge to touch it...

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