My Life- The Pretender


17195 prest
United States
42° 25' 2.8848" N, 83° 11' 54.2148" W

My life is Intoxciating

Its so Misleading

It can be so Frustrating

I guess im still debating on whether my life is worth hating

My life is so demanding and friends are not so understanding

They think I got it so easy

And shouldnt be complaining about living a life that's so damn draining  

I feel like im being suffocated

with pressure that is weighting on my chest

Im filled with so much hatred

I dont know how long I can take this

Im tired of pretending that my life is so prefect

When deep down i feel like my life is so worthless or aint worth shit 

Friends look at me as being Ms. Prefect

Its like my innocence is being taking all over again

I really thought i could get pass this

If i just blocked it in my thoughts and stay focus

But they dont understand that i feel used and hopeless

Honestly they dont know shit

Im tired of pretending like I dont have problems

and there is no one that can solve them

Im ready for my mine to be put at ease

So i can start working on being ''ME"

Im just so tired of pretending

I no longer wanna felt this hurt when 

I dont wanna be known as a pretender

There are alot of things i kept hid

like me being raped as a young kid

Starving myself like back then

Cutting my wrists like were bestfriends

Pretending is so fucking exhausting

when im dealing with shit that still haunts me








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