Myself, especially

Sometimes I feel as if I waste

Every moment that I am given

Is spent indulging in reckless pleasure

Rather than pursuing some noble cause

Rather than fulfilling some “potential”

I sit and whine

About my supposed struggle

And then I always seem to blame

Some undeserving victim

Which makes me feel

Guilty

Because I am annoying people

Because I am disappointing

Myself, especially

The one person I can never please

Because she’s

Never happy

With second place

With “A” minus

With “good job”

With anything

That is in my reach

Is not good enough for her

Standards are high

Impossibly so that one

Myself, especially

Can never achieve

The goals that she sets

Are meant to ensure that

I reach my “potential”

Meet and exceed my “potential”

But I can’t

And it frustrates me

That I can’t

And it angers me

That I can’t

Stick to the plan and

Do what I’m told

And be that perfect girl

Who pleases her parents

Who impresses her friends

Who satisfies the girl

Myself, especially

Who cannot be satisfied

With anything

She tries will fail

And leave her in tears

Apart her whole life

As she attempts to pursue some impossible

To live this way

With no sign of happiness

To lighten her day

After day she cries for help

Me please because I want to be free

Me from

Myself, especially.

This poem is about: 
Me

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