Not Good Enough
Intro;
Okay
You are not good enough.
That is what I said.
sorry
I know this isn’t the funniest topic for a poem and I know it’s not what you want to hear before having to writeand put yourself out there
but We are never going to be good enough
I know this because
Statics
because of math
there can only be one of us
a winner
per competition
and that means
if one hundred of us are here
99 get to sit
and look up
and know
there is no
good enough
not for us
Let us cover this destruction
in thin veils
of talent
lack there of
Ambition
of
lethargy
say that those who feel inferior and attack themselves deserve it
and pretend that these truths
are not our truths
none of it matters
and it all matters
because look look we are stuck
below
always below someone
always just a few steps away from perfect
from good enough and okay
we won’t ever be because
as much as your rise there is further to go
and the top is a nonsexist
rising is all we can do
until we rise no further
and then what
what happens
when you hit the top that you can see so clearly from the bottom
will everything be perfect
will that voice in our head
stemming from who knows wheres
finally be silenced
I don’t think so
because
I know there there is further to go
Perhaps a different activity could be found for me
less personal
Perhaps I’ll try sports
except no
expect competition is universal
so it logically follows
being perfect can only be achieved
when those around you
are not
therefore
someone is not good enough
And I wish this would stay where it belongs
with competition
competitions wherein you are meant to compete
but no
no this follows us like a shadow
when we create and try to live
and I want to shout
Let your ideas stay as they are
right now
pretty and perfect
a great simple thought
because as soon as you bring them into reality
the minute you write them into existence
sketch it out
try for that ambition you’ve been talking about for months
try for your dream
the minute
everything becomes real
tangible
that minute
will be the minute
when you are able to look upon
your perfect
pretty idea
you will be able to see
all of it’s terrible flaws
the unending complexities
the chipped paint
the cracks
the dents
and it will fall
so pathetically short of it’s luminous potential
and it will not be good enough
I can promise you it won’t
even if
by some miracle it is good
which it isn’t
it just became real
and it is in roughest and most terrible form
it can defnintnalny be better
after all
look around
look at how high you could be climbing
Good god look at us
Just for a minute
actually look around
at the person sitting next to you
look at us
or at least at me
maybe none of you feel this way
maybe none of you compare yourselves to others and come up short
spiraling toward this perfectly destructive perfectionism
and
I wish I could have
a part in this poem
where I contemplatively say
but maybe not
I wish this I could take about
how every one of us
can throw off the shackles of mediocracy
and you will rise
be greater then all the rest
you will look back on a time when you thought
you weren’t good enough
and you will laugh
at this time when
but you won’t
we won’t
because how the hell are any of us going to get there
when we are wholly unwilling
to lower these ridiculously high standards that we have burdened ourselves with
but o
I can’t help but think that if we don’t get a solution
we are going to spill
and spiral
nothing gets done
when nothing is not good enough
okay so
we need a solution
so I’ve thought
and the only solution that I have come have
that would actually work
Is we all
give up
stop trying…. to reach a perfect ideal that if we are bing honest doesn’t exist
take a deep breath
process what I am saying
because I can promise this is the only way
we are never ever going to achieve what we want
so we have to stop
stop trying to compete
with the stories that surround us
because chances are
they are just that
stories
stories of success sure
unmarred by their own personal failure
that they know no one wants to look at
no on likes looking at failure
yet failure surrounds us at every corner
so good god I have to ask
what can we do about it
I mean it’s not like we can stop failing
we really really can’t
we all know that’s inevitable
and
I also don’t think
not caring is an option
not with anything important
Creation can’t happen without the creator getting hopelessly involved
so no
Caring and failing can’t be helped
But we can choose what we care about
we can choose who we compare ourselves too
because
I am better
at this
writing
being a functional human being
then I was a year ago
and that’s okay
That’s enough
and you know what
I’d bet you are too
Your better
You may still say your not good
but hey your better
and that’s enough
that will be enough