Not Looking is Hard

Location

45102
United States
39° 1' 14.4012" N, 84° 11' 46.5216" W

Not looking is so hard, but,

Why, pray tell, is it so hard?

I just can't seem to let you go.

It seems near impossible

Not to look.

Not constantly search

For your angelic face throughout

This blurred, thronging crowd.

I sometimes think I see it, 

But then I remember.

You aren't here anymore.

Not dead, just moving on with your life.

And I'm stuck.

You never knew how I felt.

You still don't.

Only I know how I felt,

How I still feel.

(Well, me and almost all of my friends

Because what teenage girl doesn't

Tell her friends absolutely everything)

I look for you at the dances,

Then remember,

You aren't here.

You won't be coming back.

And it's just so hard

Not looking for you.

Not looking is hard.

This poem is about: 
Me
My community

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