i've got some issues we just can’t grasp

you’ve got me climbing higher but I’m falling fast.

tomorrow’s a better day, but you know it won’t last..

the ghosts are still lingering, the passed from your past.

but i love you dearly, i swear you’re the one

that my heart cries out for like a loaded gun

though you won’t stay, the battle i have not won

a battle for you with your darkest demon.
i’ll stay here ‘til dawn, or ‘til i cease to wake.

whichever comes first, is sure to be mistake.

'cause i lose every time, i can’t have and eat the cake.

i’ve been cheated before, i’ll tatter and break.

but i’ll be here tomorrow

as soon as you call
i'll shoot up like a coke fiend

plastered to the wall

and i won’t run, though i may fall,

into the deep dark abyss that gathers us all.

a shriek i’ll hear as she finds me lye dead
.
no more than a bullet hole, run straight through my head.

they just didn’t listen to the words i thought and said.

i’ll love you forever, the scribbled note read.

i’m sorry for going but i’m just too weak

i promise you now, it’s not happiness i seek.

even freedom, i feel now would be bleak 

i’m searching for empty walls, unstitched sheets

now i lay me down to sleep,

i pray the lord my soul to keep.

if i should die before i wake,

i pray the lord my soul to take.

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