OCD

I have anxiety

Well not just any anxiety see I have OCD

I cannot seem to function when i feel things are not in order

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My thoughts aren’t what they used to be

When I was younger all the cares I had were so mediocre yet they seemed to matter to me so much more than the average kid

I was in the gifted program and apart of that was playing chess

I always had to have the black pieces

I always moved my pawns first

Protect the king at all cost

Bishops diagonal

Knights L shape

Rooks horizontal

Queen moves anywhere everywhere

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My mind moves everywhere

I’m always thinking of worst case scenario

I can’t sit in front of people

Their mumbling my mind can easily mistake for sneak dissing and although sitting in the back completely hinders my ability to see I can’t seem to find the courage to just just move up

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Always think ten steps ahead

Don’t let them get the best of you

Mistakes are unacceptable

Keep a clear head

Don’t let them get to your king

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I’m also claustrophobic

If I cannot stretch my arms out into my fingertips and spin around without touching anything I freeze

I sweat

I hyperventilate

Inhale exhale inhale exhale inhale exhale

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Breathe

Everything has a place on my desk

Notebook centered as much as possible

Pencil on right hand side because your right handed Mari stop writing in all caps

You can’t do that in college

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Who knew a person with OCD could fall in love

I treat my relationships as if they are projects

As if the person isn’t merely a person more like a puzzle to solve and the only reason that They last long is cause their a hard ass puzzle

But then there’s the easy ones that I just drop because my mind moves faster than I can handle

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I’m patiently waiting for my opponents move

My teachers foot is tapping

I wonder what I’m having for dinner

I’m fine with whatever as long as it doesn’t touch

Eat the least favorite first

Only mix what is meant to be mixed

Oh shit you lost focus what did your opponent move

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I don’t feel comfortable if my room door isn’t closed all the way

Even the slightest crack causes me to

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Move Mari move

What did your opponent move

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Please close my door I constantly scream in my head maybe I should put a sign up

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You’re wasting time Mari

Protect the king at all cost

Keep a clear head

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My door isn’t closed to my liking and it’s making me nervous

Somebody please close my door

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Bishops horizontal no

Rooks L shape no

Knights diagonal no

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My head is also claustrophobic and it’s pounding away at my thoughts my mind is

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Everywhere and anywhere the queen moves

Mari just move

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I can’t do this please help me

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Mari make your move

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Don’t tell me what to do

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Keep it clear

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I can’t clear my head

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Mari move

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Okay

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Checkmate

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