you say... you hate fake friends
you say... believe women
you say... be kind
you say it all
and then you stomp on your words
not seeing that person in the mirror
who does everything differently
you see what you want to see
the good parts, ignoring the bad
lying to yourself that it doesn't exist
I hope you sleep well at night
immune to the pain you've caused.
I hope you never have to go through what
I went through.
the tears, the pain, the hate you have for yourself.
everybody goes through stuff. I get that.
that doesn't mean what you do is okay
and the sad part is... you probably don't even see what
you did was wrong.
you probably feel perfectly justified in what you did,
smiling to yourself in the car
and giving each other fist bumps.
take it then. have your hurrah. feel good about yourself.
enjoy the power you have for the short while it lasts.
for teaching me what never to be like.
I never want to be like you.
I will never be like you.
I will never let myself and others gang up on somebody
and make them feel useless.
so thank you for teaching it to me now
where I have the rest of my life to use it
and have it only make me stronger.